I wish I had walked away from the New Years Eve Dance Washington DC situation that I am in now five years ago. I wanted to have the freedom of not living with my parents any more, so I stay with someone and held it out for a relationship that is now nothing. If there is any one else out there like you, I do not want to meet him unless he shows me something that you can not or will not or do not. I do not know what that would be. So, let us keep taking this relationship day by day.
Now, it is very late, so I am saying a lot of crazy things. My inner fatty is eating some French fried onions like they are potato chips. You ask if I am ok? I say yes, and that I love you, and that I want a brownie. I tell you that I should not eat one because I know that I will fall asleep right after with the sugar crash. I ask if you will still love me when I gain five pounds from eating brownies? You will. You will love me no matter what. We agree that if the New Years Gala gets weird that we will both not let it get that bad; we will not be greedy. We will think about what is best for our kids then what is best for ourselves.
You say that is true. Then we say that we do not think it will ever get that bad with us. We go to the New Years Eve Dance Washington DC anyway. When I move out, I need to know that wherever I am moving to is a place that I can afford to live on my own. Most of all, I am going to need a car. That way, I have the security of my own independence. If anything happens, I need to handle my own business and make things work for myself. The biggest two issues are money and having someone who I can get help from for taking care of my kids so that I can make money.
